I am so impressed that you had the courage to speak your truth without assistance from mind-altering medicines like I had to do. For me, it took a trip on psilocybin (on a guided mushroom trip) to come to the same conclusion that, "Men Ruin Everything." Of the three stories I wrote that grew from three separate psilocybin trips at age 70, it was the story about men ruining everything that was not curated and continues to be the least read, and least popular.
I understand that fear.
I think you would agree, we do not mean that ALL men ruin everything, but it is men overall who have ruined everything by ignoring the she-wolves of wisdom.
This was a beautiful ode to the feminine. In my youth, I, too, adopted a male attitude in the hopes of being more successful in this world. Thank God I grew old enough to know better and to shed it completely and forever.
This piece was lovely, thank you. I send heartfelt wishes to you in Africa and wherever else you go as you continue to follow your curiosity and love of what's real.